Friday, 20 June 2014

Its all about loving the the city that owns you...

  Having been inflicted by wanderlust since generations, my family has developed the knack for doing the holiday thing just right. The one I wanna share here is the city that stole my heart and I almost cheated on Amchii Mumbai. (Almost: P) the place I am talking about is NYC. Yes, the big apple. With Rockefeller Center, Times Square, statue of Liberty, Empire state building, Madam Tussads, Macys, Central Park, Hershey’s   delight and hell lot more... Why am I rushing through all this in single breath when I can write 1000s of word for each of them?


Because you will find it in any odd  article on NYC, what I fell for is the spirit. The spirit of the city is what makes it special. We have metros but it’s the soul of the city that makes you wanna own it and be owned by it. With NYC I was floored. The memorial of twin towers made me marvel the cruelty of humanity and the knack of commemorating it beautifully.

The subways showed that beneath the city there is a power, like a backstage, which helps put up a deadly show for the world. The rushing crowd who tilts head at you when you catch their eye, the cabs and the street food all marks a city that has led a regal life. There is struggle, pain and hard work there, it’s palatable but the joy of Hudson and the view from empire state building all but saps the pain, replacing it with belief, belief that they will survive.  We were in Jersey for 5 days, (4 NYC + 1 Washington.)
The stories are epic by the hour but the one that goes with the theme has an Asian family and of course the search for Iraani Chai! Having taken the hop-on, hop-off bus, I my mom and my brother were ravenous. My maa absolutely refused the Gyro, Hot dog, (sadly Red Lobster was shot down, point blank). In the quest we entered a homey looking shop and found a lovely lady, we chatted (as we love to do that in Hindi on foreign soils). By the end we knew each other’s family, the migration story and address for an Iraani chai. (Globalization, duh!)  

The lady then said she and her son are from Pakistan. I was stunned! The sworn enemies with the hatred and bloodlust were standing there, laughing, hugging, wishing luck and helping! That particular chai was the most profound one I have had till date and believe you me I was Proud. Proud to have the Jodey dillo Ko moment on the Soils of USA. The city of dreams showed me life and love (Cab drivers do hit on you, kidding!!). A place where human is just human. A place where I shed tears at the Statue of Liberty ferry, for in a strange way I felt liberated. Seeing the setting sun over the Hudson from the empire state building,  witnessing the lights come on for miles and miles around you makes you feel awed , blown, mesmerized. NYC taught me that shackles of society and the rules are illusion. Its just your guts that matters.


The beauty and grace made me humble. The last view of Statue of liberty felt like a mother bidding adieu to a warrior, full of silent strength which all but said , “I am waiting here, live your life, make me proud and come back when you are ready’. Someday I will ...
In some ways it resonates with spirit of Mumbai. The never ending lights, the feel of victory and best part- you belong to the city and the city belongs to you. Now I have 2 cities that are next to my hear (I am true blue Mumbaikar with a lust for NYC) 



This is dedicated to the lovely aapa we meet in the store, on the street of NYC. Looking forward to connecting with the life across the border with Zindagi, Take a look at it on  http://zindagitv.in/ Television just got interesting ! 



Monday, 9 June 2014

in need of it all ...

















Need someone…
Someone to share and be vulnerable with
Someone to scream at shout at and eventually smile with
its not a fairy tale thing
its not a love u prince charming deal
I just ask for a friend
A friend to talk to and be myself with
Sometimes this thing pinches me
Tells me m wrong
I have people
People to reach out to
Maybe I expect too much
In the end m trapped
There is no pointing and laughing
It’s just a cage
Inmate is quiet and aggressive,
Nonetheless it’s a cage
I decorate it make it fun
Or tear it all down
Mass destruction.
But nonetheless it’s a trap.
Is that all there is to life
My faith is shaken my life is a mess
Feels like I missed a train …
Its moving too fast or too slow
It just seems too hollow.
How do I escape, how do I change
Maybe I just need to move at a faster pace
Brutally true, I need to move .
Loose myself to win it all
Looks like a fair deal
For being myself is no easy thing
Emotions are too raw, getting near is dangerous
Stay away stay busy make life hell
That will get u a good nights sleep
And in the end its what life is about
To get up for that one dream,
sleep in peace with that very dream!



Monday, 2 June 2014

My inspiration!



I feel happy
I feel great
No good reason
Just call it fate
I am a conqueror
I am a winner
Off what, ohh god
I don’t know dat
It doesn’t matter
Not a bit
It’s like a torch
Just newly lit
Full of vigor
Full of grace
A warrior, a ballerina
Fall in a trace
I am all, all in one it seems
They all rush through me… like one being
Laughter teases ma face, shiver runs down my spine
Don no whats up, but it feels so divine
I love it all
I am me …. Just me
Happy as can be
For no reason
Breeze without season
This will always bring a smile
In darkness or defeat in life
This moment will shine
In all its glory, just as bright
N set all mishaps right
N once more I ll b a winner
I ll be a conqueror 

In all its beauty, I ll be just right …

Is this the way to be ?




I live a life dats not mine
For the me inside me cant survive
In dis world I lose myself
In the rut I just disappear
I come out wen I hav my cards write
Wats the point to play wen I caant put up a fight
Till den I bid my time
Wait to pounce , wait till its rite
Wen the wheels will turn n the world ll be mine
I ll be the fierce hunter .. n just go 4 the kill
Sometimes I wish to be
like d one I wanna be
To be myself just simple n true
A clean slate .. prestine n new
No strings attached no patched up past
Not too much to ask it my seem
But universe is a like a mean little kid
Like a puppet master wid a mean humor
It makes me live as me,
on its own terms it seems.
It’s a game and I am the pawn
Till I figure out the rules .. might as well go on !